My Curse.

Sorry for all the cursing ahead of time.

FUCK.
I hate life. Not going to lie.
I fucking hate letting people down. I hate being the annoying person.
What I hate most of all is the fucking curse I called a gift.
I am a empath.
It sucks soooo bad right now. Flares always happen and I accidently go too indepth with people and they dont even know.
Lately I have been feeling every emotion EVERYONE is having around me.
Its amplfying me and there is NO ONE who wants to listen to me.
So here I am talking into this blog.
I cannot tell you how painful it is to know what everyone feels about you.
People you thought you were cool with that really are annoyed with you.
At first I thought it was a bad day for these certain people but its been well over a week.
Everyone seems to want me to disappear. They are annoyed with me and pissy and its making me pissy.
And what is hurting me the most is that my two best friends arent talking to me for some reason.
If I need a good break I can call them up and their emotions are usually claim and relaxing.
But right now I am in the house with my Mom and she is pissy and its making me pissy.
I dont have training to block myself.
Sarah is the only one I know of who could train me but she is super busy.
School is stressing my out and making me antsy and pissy then combined with everyone's pissy moods its making me Pissed to the extreme.
And I hate it.
I started to talk to my boss DeeDee about empathy and said one of my friends has it but I think she knows.
I think this because her mood is always careful and cautious. Like she is nervous. And when she feels something I have noticed her looking at me then that nervous catious feeling comes back.
Other people at work are raw with there emotions.
They feel there emotions and dont let go or change them. And sometimes it can take me over too.
I need a break. I need an escape.
I need my friends. I miss them.
Please dont hate me.
Ciao.