Things will change for me.

Alright lets face it. I'm a dreamer not a doer. I have spent twenty years of my life letting my dreams slip me by and letting people walk over me.
I am sick of my life being a endless cycle of watching people get what they want and me sit in my hole alone and miserable.
So no more.
There is something I know that will get me in touch with the people I need in order for me to achieve my dreams.
Bands have merch people who get to know the band and get to meet other people in the recording industry.
I know that it seems a bit extreme but its what I want to do.
I would get to travel, I would get to meet new people, and meet the band(s) I work for.
So with everything in me I am going to try to get in as a Merch person for a band.
Things need to change. I need to have more confidence in myself.
So here is what I need you to do as friends.
Be a little bit more supportive of the things I do.
You do not know how much it kills me when you say I am doing something stupid.
Let me make mistakes and learn from them!
I cannot stress how much other people's opinions run my life.
Not anymore. The opinion that matters most ins mine.
If I dont like your opinion I will ignore it and possibly delete it.
I am sorry but I have let other people run my life for me for far too long.
This is my life and I want to live it the way I want to.
I hope you can support me because I love all of you and would be crush if you didnt respect me enough to support my choices.
I love all of you who read this! And I am going to love my new life. I am going to love myself.

Ciao bellas!